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Thursday, December 31st, 2037
11:50 pm	G I have good intentions. Hard time paying attention. A girl that I can care about. And who checks up on me. I have secrets that will remain that way. 'Til i'm faced with a dark day. I have friends with whom, someday, I will make amends. I'll say "sorry, I made fun of your hair-cut". And he'll make fun of mine, and then we can forget. I am good. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
8:57 am	fagamerica. I'm a freak of fucking nature. And I think you might be too. Sometimes it's hard to relate. Sometimes, it's very hard to relate. Sometimes I think I'm born with an extra-electornic chip. As in, in addition to what would be the standard set of chips that come equipped with every homo-sapien. I'm a freak of fucking nature? You know the term "human nature"? The definition of the term lies within its very name! Human Nature. Nature is me. It's a product of me. You could be too. I'm pissing on an angry turtle who's providing bullshit to minors. I might be the bigger man. Moral. The most important word in the world: MORAL. If fate has a role, then the opposite could be said. I have eight angry penises with eight angry faces. Shit is redemption. Every brown yuck that makes its ever graceful descent from my shit hole has a story. Everything is complicated, and we don't know a thing about life or anything that we can see. Every fly is born, and lives. It makes moral decisions. Just like us. We are flies. We are the brown yuck. (Comment on this)
5:41 am	hairpot I got myself a hair-cut and I think i'm going to stop smoking pot. Or maybe I'll do it more frequently. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 30th, 2037
12:33 am	i want you all to know just how fucking happy i am. all the time. and how much happier it makes me to see you all so sad. go fuck a dick and start using your brain. then come and talk to me. jaykay, ya'll. i really don't like to see anybody miserable. i love human race. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 29th, 2037
11:14 pm	at the light at the end of the tunnel. i've come to terms with a lot of the things in my life. i no longer waste my time dwelling about my misfortune. i no longer give any attention to frustrations and annoyances. i think about what i want, and i get it. and if i don't, i forget about it. use your mind as a gift and never underestimate the power of thought. focus only on being happy, and ignore anything which upsets you. the world tends to mold itself to your liking. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 18th, 2037
3:04 am	boy I'm a boy who's giving in. Who is not producing one single coherent thought anymore. Who is turning a blind eye to the chaos that is beginning to engulf him. Who is sleeping through the deafening fire alarm. Who is unphased at the surface of his conscience, which is now cracking (not at the moment) and starting to reveal the pain and frustration that lie beneath. Beneath, where I am not so numb anymore and I can feel and, for a moment, realize the situation i've got myself into. And the situations others have gotten me into. But I cannot hold others in such high esteem, for that is clearly setting myself up for dissapointment and ultimately, frustration with everything around me. Stress is for people with huge, hard, impenetrable brains. And unless I'm some sort of pyschologically anemic mutant, I'm pretty sure those type of brains don't exist. Sometimes I like to humor myself, and the world, and for a few moments- believe in god. I'll recite the old Islamic prayer before a big day- "just in case". Just in case big papa's really up there and he hears me talking to him, and he looks down and smiles watchfully over me throughout the day. It's comforting. I would go on about more bullshit, but now I am at peace. And so goes the mind of a simple boy who's giving in (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 28th, 2037
2:25 am	blow me I'm fucking hungry, and I want (NEED) someone to feed me! I've been trying to fall asleep but my stomach is EMPTY. I never want to take a pill again. I never want to take THE pill again. I will never take THE pill. And I can't fall asleep. And I'm hungry. Fucking let downs, man. That's all your fucking life is. That's all my fucking life is. Roll the ble', I got greens. Why the fuck not? I'll prove everyone else right and make 'em feel good about themselves for a few minutes- and I'll slowly, but surely, ruin my life. And why should it matter? I've said it before, and I'll say it a few more fucking times- Fuck ya'll, all ya'll, if ya'll don't like me- blow me. I have no clue what I want from anyone or anything. Stomach pains. Go to Yelling Game's show on Friday, May 4th. I'll blow you a kiss or something. It might be fun. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 1st, 2037
10:49 pm	I don't want to be like my parents. I don't want to live like they do. Because inside the walls of the facade that is our expensive house, live two people who are clearly not satisfied with life. My mom is never happy, and I don't blame her. My dad is a troubled man. I can't bear to see them like this, so I try to be out of the house as often as I can. And when I'm outside, I don't ever think about them. But they're always here- you'll find my dad next to the kitchen counter, submitting, pathetically, to vices such as alcohol and tobbaco. And you'll find my mom, trying to fix things which are seemingly beyond repair. I'm sorry if this entry isn't vauge, if it's too in-your-face- but i'm tellin' it like it is. Oh yeah, saturday was great. And today was fun too. I look forward to what this month might bring. Who knew people could be nice?! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 28th, 2036
6:58 pm	six I am sixteen years old and without a job or a wife. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 26th, 2035
4:29 am	WUAP It's 4:25 AM, and I have school in two hours. Things have been getting slightly better. I've learned to adjust to my new (since summer) way of thinking and even though most of my questions have not been answered, I am trying to adapt to the world around me. I've finished writing my script, and I have extremely high hopes for the final product. It should make me a star. I have found some peace with my mind, but how long can I expect it to last? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 8th, 2035
7:24 pm	Yeah! This week has been such an awkward mix of feelings that I don't even know what to write in here. A few days have been good, others haven't. Sometimes I'll feel optimistic, and then five minutes later, I won't. What's going on this weekend, anywho? I need to have a good time, drink or something. Anyone down to have a drink or a smoke? Current Music: People- Animal Collective (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 30th, 2034
12:14 am	opposite day things are getting a whole lot better people definitely care about ALL my problems and i definitely care about theirs (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 28th, 2034
9:47 pm	irrelevancy is key on saturday, i was tragically betrayed by my sister and my friends- alone behind a dumpster with nothing but a 40. it was very cold, you crazy bitches. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 23rd, 2030
10:01 pm	I'm getting dumber each day. I wonder when I'll be a retard. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 15th, 2020
10:39 pm	friday Let's talk about Friday. Friday was just spectacular. I was in the company of two of my best mates. We can call them Grant and Jim. We had been rejected by a group of kids in a van with more "concrete" plans. More "organized fun", if you will. Little did we know (well, i had a suspicion), that this rejection would lead to a lovely night. For a while, we had nothing to do. Then, we tried to take this lovely ol' nap. And even though no sleep was to be had, it was refreshing! After the nap, we played "rushing attack". I just made the name up but it involved running out past a fence and trying to evade two people trying to smear you before you reached the bush. This game was at my favorite place in the whole wide world. St. Gregs. Actually, it might be my least favorite, but in this way, it is like a home. Back to Friday. After the game, which served us quite well, we decided to go pioneering. Well, I don't know if we decided to, but it happened and I was not complaining. We inhaled the reefie at this wonderful spot which overlooked the highway. It was a high ride without actually entering a vehicle. There, we smoked our cigarettes and listened to some really good music. For a second, I could swear I was "infinite". Kidding, of course. I was not infinite in the LEAST BIT. After our sit-down, we decided to cross the highway exit. We walked around in unfamiliar territory. It was very dark. We could not see. We ended up at this strange place- apparently it was the "base" of the power lines in warwick. Nifty stuff. We walked on over to civilization. We entered TGIF, where we planned to dine and dash. That is, to eat and not pay. We pulled this off succesfully. Almost. After we had sprinted from the restaurant, where we left only five dollars (the bill was 35 bucks), I realized I had left my mother's phone there. My heart sank. What a horrible end to a glorious day! I walked in, heart racing. I explained to them that my friends panicked when we realized we had no money. I said "they ran, and i felt bad so I came back". And they said "very honorable, good man". And I said "my sister should be here soon with her credit card". And then...I ran again. Friday was the change I was desperately searching for. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 2nd, 2013
12:56 am	when every day is just like the last, you tend to lose a certain flair about you. it's time for some real changes to present themselves. i will accept any alteration of any kind. anything that disrupts this nightmareish cycle that i've been stuck in. what's wrong with people lately? friendship is not something to be taken for granted. it's something that takes great care and tending to. if the friendship is not tended to or taken care of, it will diminish. and you just don't care, do you? also, i am now accepting romance offers from the females. make an orderly line. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2010
9:30 pm	On Friday, the weather prevented me from filming my movie. On Saturday, my actors' priorities prevented me from filming my movie. On Sunday, football prevented me from filming my movie. On this weekend, pot prevented me from filming my movie. I need to have the dvd and script, in hand, on Thursday. (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 4th, 2010
10:06 pm	i'm going to tell them your secrets You know those songs that always sound better when they're playing in another room? Well, I don't really have anything to say about those songs. I figured they deserved some recognition, that's all. I think everyone deserves a little bit of recognition, actually. Everyone does something great and that same person does something else horribly. I don't know what I'm getting at here. This is what a LiveJournal is for. I think. Though nobody else can really understand these, myself included. I want to get caught up in everything, but if nothing means anything, then why bother? I hear kids talking, debating about useless shit like the hockey game and I just want to yell at them "NONE OF THIS MATTERS". People need to start thinking outside of the box. Then we'll all be loonies. Has anyone noticed that these entries are dated in the year 2010? Isn't it weird how kids can be so wildly perceptive and knowledgable about...everything? I'm talking about little kids. My sister, who's 5, says some of the most profound shit I hear all day. Actually, I guess five isn't that young anymore. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 3rd, 2009
10:47 pm	I'll try my best to shut up and not think. I've been reading all of you guys' LJ entries and it SEEMS like you guys are all going through the same shit as me. Thinkin' the same, doin' the same, whatever...you know? It can't be though, I'm thinking and thinking and going crazy thinking and you guys CAN'T be thinking the same. But are you? Is it ALL teenage bullshit?!  Part me of hopes it is, part of me hopes it isn't. You want to figure everything out and be the next Aristotle. Is it better to just...NOT think at all. Do your work. Don't ask questions. Smoke pot and keep your mind off things. Or you can go crazy. I'll just shut up. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 28th, 2009
12:24 pm	recent rafay reviews NACHO LIBRE By the creators of School of Rock and, more noticeably, Napoleon Dynamite, comes the familiar story of a chef-monk who, because of the poor quality of the food that is fed to the children at the monestary, decides to wrestle for money which will be spent on bettering the ingredients of the food, but, in a most wicked turn of events, is tempted into vice and hedonism only to heroically redeem himself soon after. Nacho Libre works like a children's book; it has a charming story, likeable characters, and vibrant, unique art design. The catch is, it just isn't funny if your sense of humor precedes that of a ten year old's. Unlike Napoleon Dynamite, the off-kilter, eccentricity seems tired here. It makes one wonder if the only reason Napoleon worked was because of Jon Heder's dead-on performance and hilarious delivery of each line. Nacho Libre's eye popping cinematography was one redeeming quality of the film; it's Napoleon's look with a budget. Jared Hess' Napoleon Dynamite, whether one likes it or not, will forever have its place in cult movie history. It's just too bad Hess was only a one hit wonder as Nacho Libre dissapointingly stinks of pedestrianism. 6/10 UNITED 93 United 93, directed by englishman paul greengrass, is the controversial film that details the events of 9-11 and flight 93 in particular. A lot of americans were concerned that perhaps the release of this film was 'too soon' and that the film would act as merely a cash-in on such a devastating tragedy. I must admit that i had some of the same concerns, however, after viewing the film, i am convinced otherwise. United 93 remains entirely unexploitive- it stays objective, never taking cheap shots and toying with your emotions. Greengrass, like he did with bloody sunday, shot the film completley by the facts. the film presents you with the events of that day and that is it. it all results in a well crafted, effective piece of cinema that honors the heroes of the infamous day and helps us remember one of, if not the greatest tragedy in america's history. All this- yet no cigar. You enter and leave the film the same way. It doesn't quite alter your perception of 9/11, nor does it provide any insight or messages about the controversey surrounding the attacks. It merely exists to portray what happened. This is the downfall of the film. but, the film's intensity and raw power redeems it's flaws and helps me give it a shaky thumbs up. 7/10 (Comment on this)